I decided to switch this month to Career and Finance for a few reasons. For one, my friend from film school came to visit. She and I have always been 'doers' together. When we are around each other, we don't ask "should we", we just try new things and find out what happens. And that's more in line with the way I've always wanted to live. She's helped me realize that even though I'm stuck in a rut now, I don't have to stay there just because it's comfortable. I can go out and find my happiness and be OK even if I don't have the cool sounding Disney job. I can go anywhere I want, I could even live abroad if I worked hard enough to find the means. Secondly, because I'm thinking of drifting away from these 'roots', I need to tighten up the way I spend and cut the fat. My friend also helped me realize how loose I've been with money. She has been on a tight budget for years and opened my eyes to that perspective. My eating out all the time is so wasteful when I have all this produce in my fridge and it just takes some creative thinking to make something delicious out of it.
I've been playing with the idea of cutting out netflix and some other things. I even court the idea of trying the 100 possessions challenge. That's a huge change, but something I'd like to consider. I'm tired of feeling tied down in a place I don't really enjoy. I'm starting to believe that life's joy won't come from getting the perfect career but enjoy the experiences along the way to where ever I end up and connecting with the people I meet. If I live for an unattainable goal and am always disappointed in not achieving it, I'll never be at peace.
I have a lot of thinking to do when it comes to the production company. In a way, it feels like just another thing tying me here. Though owning my own production company sounds like a dream come true, the way we are heading toward it now just seems so blind and premature.
To begin with, I'm shopping around for other phone service providers and I think I'll go ahead and turn off my Netflix for the month as a trial period. I will also work on a strict weekly budget that I must stick to. And I'll begin exploring all of my life/career options and expanding my view of where that could lead me.